today was THE day...

Finally I start to feel good.
It's still scary to remember of what I've been through, but it's all the process for being a strong mom...

Today, I had the second appointment with my doctor.
I'm so fortunate to have found this such an amazing, supportive, wonderful doctor.
All the result of blood test went fine. I had some minor infection, but she said that's pretty common.
I saw the baby through sonogram.

WOW! I saw it moving so quick and very active!
No wonder, the doctor said one of the reasons why I felt pain in my belly was because of this!!
It was kicking my belly! :)

Well, now it's time to replace to call the baby "it"! :D
It was..... a girl!!!
When the doctor asked if I was the kind of person who wants to know which gender before giving a birth, and I said I totally want to know before!
And, I realized, "so if she knows by now, it must be a boy."
The answer from her was "it's a girl!"

Honestly, I have to say that as long as it's a healthy baby, that matters the most to me.
A healthy, bright, beautiful, and happy baby.
Now it's all up to me to take care of this little cute princess to be as me and my husband's wish  :)

Sure, it's still 17th weeks, but you can certainly tell the shape of the body, the movement, and even the face!
Yes! I got to see the face!!
When I saw her, I thought "wow it looks like an alien lol." But, it's true- big eyes and little tiny nose :)
At the same time, strangely enough, I thought of my husband- she looks like him!
I don't mean my husband looks like an alien, but my baby, who looks like an alien, looks like him.
She's got his beautiful rounded big eyes...

I couldn't stop thinking of how happy I am to have this baby together with my husband.
I couldn't help appreciating all the joys and happiness he has brought to me.
Life is a full of challenges. Sometimes you might want to avoid seeing them.
Life is limited, but it's all up to me to make it with a lot of happiness. That's unlimited.
I learn everyday. I fail sometimes but I can stand up each time. And start again.
Today is another new beginning.

mozart's requiem

I want to share something incredible today.

Sadly, I was asked to play for memorial service of one of my professor's wife.
The piece that I was asked to play in the small ensemble was Mozart's Requiem- probably one of the most amazingly beautiful works of all time and my favorite piece.
We played some excerpts from it- Introit, Kyrie, Recordale, and Lacrimosa.
It was just unbelievably beautiful performance.
What was touching the most was that this performance showed that music can really move people and give messages.
The professor, who usually is a role of grumpy, old man, showed his tears with sadness and sorrow, when we performed the piece.

It was somehow odd first experience for me to play at the memorial service, but it turned out that the most amazing musical experience of my life.
Especially as being a pregnant woman, I might have felt something special about life after seeing so many great stories from family talking about their loss. It was indeed emotional and moving, and yet I found it very positive- to celebrate her accomplished life-.
At the same time, I couldn't stop thinking but how fortunate to have people whom you love in your life. You don't know when the end will be. You'll never know.
Of course, we can't live with sort of scary thoughts in your head all the time, but I reminded myself how precious to live in each moment, with people whom you care, doing what you love...

7kolorz

a little bit of myself

7kolorz is expecting a baby at the end of this year.
I was a student at graduate school.
A lot of project was ahead of me.
I was just overwhelmed.
But, this is just amazing to be able to have a baby.
A new life is alive in my body.
My fear and anxiety just turned into hope and happiness.

I've been suffering from morning sickness for weeks.
Constantly having a nauseous and dizziness all day long.
I couldn't even take a subway without getting off at some stations on my way.
All these suffering are training to become strong and ready to be a mother-
tried to encourage myself and dipped some soup...

Morning sickness is getting better, and now I start to feel my belly little bit swelling.
Everyday, I realize a new life is strongly growing in my body...
My new journey to be a mother has just begun.

the first attempt

Hello. My name is 7kolorz.

Just graduated with master's.

Just got married.

Will become a mother soon.

What an exciting year of 2010...!

So, I've decided to write a diary-a long time challenge-.

I thought if it's online, I could continue everyday.

Let's give it a try.

Love,

7kolorz